Audrey Kawasaki (Juxtapoz cover artist, January 2012, n132) has long been one of the preeminent pop surrealist painters in the world. From gallery shows around the world, to a hardcore fanbase that collect her prints and paintings, she has become a bit of an icon in the Los Angeles art world. As her life begins to change on the eve of having her first child, Juxtapoz and Chop 'em Down Films sat down in her studio to get an insight into how this will effect her work, and what she sees as her next phase.
In about a month I will become a mother to a daughter. These past few months of preparing have definitely been a journey.
Aside from lifestyle and physical changes, there’s major psychological changes, which I feel is one of the best parts of being pregnant. It’s been a time for me to think a lot and do some major self-reflecting. It’s given me time to reexamine myself - my past, my upbringing, my identity, and what it means to become a parent to a child.
I feel like I’m in a unique transitional period. I know changes are happening and about to happen. In a way, its like resetting myself, my life, and everything I know about it. It’s like rewiring the brain, and letting go of undesirable habits and behavior patterns, and making a conscious decision to change and improve. Reminding myself to stay mindful and positive.
I’m excited to meet her, and I’m also anxious and nervous. Life as I know it is going to be completely different when she arrives. I’ll have to reinvent and rediscover myself as a mother, as a person, and as an artist.
I’m working on a small body of work right now before baby arrives, and I’m enjoying it in a unique way. I’m taking my time, tinkering here and there, not worrying to much about time and pressure, and just letting it flow and take it’s course.
I anticipate that the new connection between my daughter and I will greatly influence my work in the future, especially because the subject of my work involves the psyche of girls and young women.
My ongoing core theme of my work developed and took shape in my youth. To be able to revisit that experience of adolescence and girlhood, through my daughter’s eyes, may give me new perspective of what it means to be a girl/female in this world.
I’m sure motherhood and my new sense of identity will bring new meaning to my work. I’m really excited to explore that.